No Bravery - James Blunt

~~~~ Creative

There are children standing here, Arms outstretched into the sky, Tears drying on their face. He has been here. Brothers lie in shallow graves. Fathers lost without a trace. A nation blind to their disgrace, Since he's been here.And I see no bravery, No bravery in your eyes anymore. Only sadness. Houses burnt beyond repair. The smell of death is in the air. A woman weeping in despair says, He has been here. Tracer lighting up the sky. It's another families' turn to die. A child afraid to even cry out says, He has been here. And I see no bravery, No bravery in your eyes anymore. Only sadness. There are children standing here, Arms outstretched into the sky, But no one asks the question why, He has been here. Old men kneel and accept their fate. Wives and daughters cut and raped. A generation drenched in hate. Yes, he has been here. And I see no bravery, No bravery in your eyes anymore. Only sadness.

The world is changed because you are made of ivory and gold. The curves of your lips rewrite history

~~~~ Apathetic

A great movie I just discovered? Velvet Goldmine. I don't know what I just really like it. It's kinda like Hedwig and the Angry Inch without so much bitterness. Of course, they don't have as much to be bitter about as Hedwig does. But anywhoo. It was great. I really liked it.

We set out to change the world... ended up just changing ourselves. What's wrong with that? Nothing, if you don't look at the world.

*edit*

p.s. The new youtube player is really cool!

~~~~ Hungry

I can't believe I go back to school in less than a month. I'm so ready but school has become this almost dream to me. I'm having lunch with Nicole tomorrow. I think she might have some questions about school. I asked her mom where she was staying and she didn't know. I wanna know if she's on East Quad and if I can mooch East Quad Delivery from her every once in a while!

Saturday Steph, Laura, Danean, and I went to Cedar Point. Still haven't been on Millenium Force or Top Thrill Dragster. I really don't want to ride Top Thrill Dragster but I'm hoping if Lindsay and I go this Thursday I can finally make Millenium Force. I think I'll skip the Mantis though. It's not a terrible coaster of anything but really I'm just not a fan. I'm glad Steph really liked the raptor, I think everyone likes that ride. Honestly though, the best part of the entire trip? Reading all the name tags to see where all the workers are from. Cedar Point has an international program where they bring in workers for the summer from all over the world. It was fun to guess what the nametags said from far away then to get close enough to read them. So yeah, hoping to make it back to Cedar Point this Thursday and I really hope the Indians win this Wednesday.

My potential Mr. Darcey is getting more and more potential. I probably shouldn't get my hopes up though. He lives here, is younger, and probably isn't even interested in me. Oh well, it's fun to dream. And unlike SOME people *cough cough* I'm not willing to get into another relationship just a few months after a VERY long term ended. Not that I'm pointing fingers or anything...

Crash... But Not Like the Movie

~~~~ Good

Well, you always know it'll happen to you someday but you're never ready for it. Had my first car accident yesterday. What an experience. I was driving down a local street, one that I've probably been down hundreds of times, when I passed an elderly woman at a stop sign. I didn't really think anything of it since I KNEW I had the right away but when I was about level with her she started coming toward me! Well, she hit me at the front of my car... smashing my headlight. But since she was in the process of turning left she literally peeled all the metal from my headlight to my passenger-side door off. Needless to say I was extremely dazed and confused but luckily not hurt. There were a lot of people around and they came rushing to help. It was really nice to know that so many people wanted to helps us out. The police came quickly and it was really quite effortless. Unfortunatley by dad was out of town and I couldn't get a hold of my mom so how to get out of downtown was a little more difficult. I ended up trying to get a hold of Chanda but she was at the gym so her wonderful mother came to get me. I love Roni so much! She sat with me until the tow-truck took my beloved first car away and then drove me home. I need to go get her flowers either tomorrow or Monday.

So my first car ever is gone. The shop I had it towed to called and said it was totaled. :( Believe it or not I'm really sad. I loved that car and I didn't care that it was a 1994 and had 119,000 miles on it. It was my car and I knew it was always there for me. Thanks to an old woman, it's gone now. I'm sorry, but I think when you turn 65 you should be required to re-take your drivers test and then every 2 years after you need to take it and then you just simply cannot drive after 75. Period. I've heard and seen too many close calls because of senior citizen drivers and a few years ago a senior citizen actually killed one of my dad's friend's sons because, once more, she just drove right through a stop sign. I can tell you this, my parents won't have their license after they've turned 75. Better safe than sorry.

R.I.P. Darwin Jr. You will be missed.

School

~~~~ Sleepy

I know I still have like a month left before I have to go back to school but it's really beginning to dawn on me that the summer's almost over. Today at work someone asked if I was scared to go back to school. I knew my answer was NO! But it got me really thinking about going back. This break has been long and now it's beginning to make me feel as if college was some crazy dream that I never actually lived. The friends I made at school now seem like a part of my life I no longer associate with only Oxford. I've seen their house, even slept there. We have done things outside of MU and we're making even more plans now. Cedar Point and the Indians have nothing to do with Miami. It's weird but everything has fallen into place so well I didn't realize how seperate my life was during school. I know my ramblings probably don't make sense but it's just weird. It makes sense to me at least!

I guess the bottom line is I am ready to go back to school and I'm definitley not scared or worried about anything. It's now just become another part of my life that's simply fabulous.

Of Work, Splints, and Ancient Egyptians

~~~~ Complacent

I feel disgusting but I'm too lazy to do anything about it. I haven't worked since Sunday but I work tomorrow. Is it sad that I'm nervous about opening? I mean, I've done it once before but it seems like everything went wrong. I know how to do it now but I'm still kinda worried things might go wrong. The main thing I'm worried about is the display. I feel as if I can do it but what if I get something wrong? I'm pathetic, I know.

Went to get my splint today. Things couldn't have been more messed up. First, we went to Health Point but it turns out it was in the same building as Dr. Miller's office. So we had to walk over there. Then he asked for the prescription and we didn't have it. Health Point told us that Dr. Miller would fax it over. Then the guy who was fitting me for the brace was kinda weird. He asked questions in strange non-descript way. He was asking about my physical therapy and then all of a sudden he was like "what do you do?"... :| what? for physical therapy? I slowly answered "I'm a student..." Thankfully that's what he wanted. Then he took some measurements and was like "so where do you go to school" When I told him Miami he was like "so how do you get up here so often" :| Once more I slowly answer "it's summer break" All-in-all the entire experience was awkward.

Last night I finished my application for the American University of Cairo. I can't believe that in 5 months I could be on my way to Egypt. Mr. Storck and my English prof Joe agreed to write letters of recommendation and I wrote my essay last night (while watching the Home Run Derby. Please, don't judge me) and I got an email today saying they recieved my application and are reviewing. Looks like they have rolling admission so I might know in like a month if I'm going or not! *squeal* So just for shits and giggles I started looking at flights to Cairo. The cheapest flight? A flight from Cleveland that stops at MOSCOW ( :confused: ) and then arrives in Cairo at 12:30 am! Ummm... I'll spend the couple extra hundred to make my fabulous arrival in Cairo at a PM hour! The three flights I'm completely okay with? They all leave from Cleveland but stop in Paris, Rome, or Vienna before going to Cairo! I know that I'll probably not actually get to go anywhere but I'd be in heaven if I knew I could step off a plane in Paris, Rome, or Vienna. Plus if I stopped in Rome I could try out my Italian. Two birds... one stone... hell yeah! Oh I hope everything works out. I really hope I could go!

Oh What a Circus

~~~~ Drained

Well today has been weird. Really hard to describe. First off I've done nothing. Last night Chanda and I went to see the midnight showing of Pirates of the Caribbean Dead Man's Chest. It wasn't terrible but it really wasn't anything like the first one. I enjoyed all the wit they wrote into Johnny Depp's character. There was also a preview for a new movie with Dick Van Dyke in it! I have had a crush on Dick Van Dyke since I was 5. I just think he's the best thing ever. Anyways, I got home at like 3 and was suprisingly tired. Maybe it was the fact I didn't get to sleep until 5 in the morning the day before, or maybe it was the exhausting day at work I had but I managed to stay awake until 3:30 and then I was out. Usually that means I'll sleep til noon at the latest. But I woke up at one and was still tired! I ended up snoozing until 2:30 in the afternoon! That's insane for me. I don't like the feeling of sleeping that long, it bugs me. I don't know why but I don't like it. So then I checked my mail and it turned out my book was in at the library. So I got to go get it and now I think I'll read awhile tonight. I have to work tomorrow and Sunday and that's about my weekend. Oh fun.

Sign Language

~~~~ Hyper

I'm really not like bouncing off the walls or anything but it's 2:30 in the morning and I really should be more tired than I am right now. I will give myself credit however. I was sick all of yesterday and I slept... and slept... and slept! So I've gained sleepy points and I guess I'm spending them now.

Today was okay. It started out with me feeling just as shitty as I did yesterday but I guess all I had to do was get out of the house and have hundreds of people thrown in my face to make me feel better. Turns out that last year for the 4th no one showed up to eat so they weren't expecting much. Few servers with big sections and only two hostesses. Needless to say it rained this year and we got swamped. Oh well, I actually kinda enjoyed it. We went on a real wait (the first one I've really experienced) and it kept me busy. After work I went to Blockbuster to pick up Season Size. Part One. Disc 3 of Sex and the City. I ran into Nick Denney there. I know I only sat beside him for one year sophmore year of science. And I know that now I'm a sophmore in college :confused: yipes. But I always feel so close to him when I see him. He makes me so happy and I just wish him the best whenever I see him. He looks good. Turns out his brother passed away last year :( but he really seems to be getting his act together. He has an interview at the College of Wooster and seems to be pretty well off because of his accounting certificate at the career center. Awww, I hope he does well in life.

Discovered Neopets. Oh, I'm in trouble.

Discovered Viggo Mortensen's book of photography on our book shelf the other day. I know Mom only bought it because she's in lust with him but I figure if I steal it and respect it for the Renaissance Man he is it'll all be good. The pictures are amazing but I really like his paintings.



You should check it out.

Wooo!

~~~~ Content

Yesterday was probably the best day of work I've ever had. First of all, I got to go in at 4:30 which means I didn't have to close and it turned out two people came in at 5 so I was second cut not third! Woo! Then, at about 8:00 one of the waitresses quit. And when I say quit, she just walked out. I know, I'm so immature but I've never had anything like that happen to me before. She has another job and the people at work give her hell all the time so she decided she had enough. Supposedly she walked into the office, set down her apron and nametag, explained the money was in the apron and walked out. One of the girls was like "are you kidding" and she kinda half-heartedly laughed and was like "no." Then she walked out the front door and looked at me and asked me to tell on of the other hostesses to call her. I didn't really think anything of it at the moment and then it hit me: wait, there's like three hours left until close and the closing waitress in smoking has just walked out the door! I heart small-minded drama.

Speaking of my own drama, the ex called today. I didn't answer the phone and he didn't leave a voicemail. I have no intention of calling him back. The fact that he didn't leave a voicemail makes me think he accidently called me, like he has a new girlfriend and forgot to entirely change the contact or something. Yeah, I just pulled that out of my ass, of well. But anywhoo, if he didn't leave a message he must not really have anything to say and I have nothing to say to him so I guess we've just covered all the bases.

Speaking of bases, the Indians won tonight! Oh Travis Hafner and your grand slams... I approve. AND Bob Wickman didn't play... always a good thing lately.

Speaking of lately, I've noticed that most of the titles for my post lately have been more of utterances than actual words. Woooo and hmmmm.... well, I guess it's summer and I don't have anything more articulate to say.