Wow. What I Learned Today. The Eating Disorder

~~~~ Sympathetic

In English we've been working on projects that fit the "Miami Image" and my group chose eating disorders. It's been recorded that anywhere between 10 - 20% of the girls and 5 - 10% of the boys at Miami have an eating disorder. I decided to do some extra research and found dozens of pro-anorexia sites (known as pro-ana sites on google). It was really quite shocking, but I think I'm a closet-psychiatrist and I went to check them out to see what they were all about. They were all aware that anorexia and bullimia in all their forms are eating disorders but they were just willing to accept that they have a problem and let it control their lives. Now, I am a firecly independent person and I couldn't imagine anything, be it boys, tobacco, alcohol, or eating disorders, controlling my life but me. So I don't really understand what they're going through.

All the sites I visited had one thing in common (other than the obvious). They all had a section called something along the lines of "when you've gone too far." Pro-ana sites have links to the websites offering help to those who have eating diorders and are on the brink of disaster. That really surprised me. I expected all these sites to be "proclaiming the beauty of an eating disorder and encouraging all to come to the light side because that's where salvation and beauty truly lie." Or perhaps there have just been too many Jehovah's Witnesses at my door. Anyways, I definitley didn't expect them to be offering help to get out of the diseases they were promoting. It seemed to me like it was along the lines of Bush telling everyone to vote for John Kerry. It just doesn't happen. Anyways, needless to say, it turned out my pro-ana search ended up at anti-ana sites. And then I found this one.

The actualy site is entitled Something Fishy and it's a site for loved ones to identify eating disorders and help those who need it. But there's a link on the site that really touched me and I wanted to share it. In Loving Memory is a memorial of people lost to an eating disorder. I was stunned as to the magnetutde of people that have died. I've always known that eating disorders were potentiall fatal but you never hear of anyone who has actually died from one. It's just not really talked about.

You May Be Lost, But You Aren't Forgotten.

Oh My Gosh

~~~~ Indescribable

9 days left of school. Yeah, I can count that on my fingers. Not sure how I feel about that. Right now I wanna say not happy.

~~~~ Satisfied

What a summer so far. I got a job at Tumbleweed. I'm a hostess. The money isn't that great but it isn't the Wooster Brush Company so I don't care. I haven't heard back from BW3's yet but I'm thinking I might take the job there too. I don't think I'll be working as many hours at Tumbleweed as I would like and I think I'd be working at the same time at either place so I might be able to handle it. We'll see when they call. I'll ask what times and how many hours they'd be expecting me to work and if it seems to work out I'll take it. Plus, if I end up hating one place or the other I could always quit and still have a job.

I have come to one conclusion though. I make bad decisions during the summer. Thank you for listening.

I want to go to Cedar Point and an Indians Game this summer. Those are my big plans. In other words, I'm gonna be working A LOT.

Season Finale of Lost in two days :) I can't wait to see what happens.

I have over 30 credits now so I can apply to AUC :) Oh I'm so excited!

The Light of the Fading Star

~~~~ Cold

What a weekend! Friday we went to Johnny Rockets for dinner. Yum, I love their egg salad sandwhiches! Then we shopped around the Cincinnatti Mills Mall. I spent entirely too much money on one hand but on the other hand I did only buy a pair of cropped pants and flip flops. I think it's because I paid for dinner I feel like I spent too much. That won't be happening again. I love my cropped pants though. I have to get some more of those. Then we came back to MU and went to a beach bash. It was fucktastic. We tie-dyed t-shirts, got henna tatoos (I finally got to get one on my hand... vines in honor of the Green Man), and won a fish for Steffie! She named him Che. He's a little goldfish and oh-so adorable. The best part? It was alllll free! Sometimes MU loves us and sometimes it doesn't. Friday night? It loved us! Then we came back to the dorm and watched the Newsies. Saturday we went to Bob Evans for breakfast, washed the tie-dyed t-shirts we made, watched Lost, went to Panera Bread for dinner, went to Old Navy and a book store in Hamilton (I didn't buy anything, you should be so proud of me), and got a little lost coming back home. The Mapquest directions were a little confusing and we ended up going two wrong ways before we figured it out but we got home and that's all that mattered. Then we came back to MU and had a bonfire. Good for the soul! :D Then we ate ice cream and watched some more Lost. We haven't done much today. We're going to Kofenya later to work on some homework and a double soy white mocha is definitley calling me but we have to wait until Steffie gets back from dance. I really think I need to get out of this room! I don't have much homework to work on but there is a paper due Wednesday I could get started on and some other misc. things to do but nothing imperative. So yeah, all-in-all a good weekend. I can't believe this was the last normal weekend. I only have 11 days left. Two days and I'll be in the single digits. That's so weird.

I Think I Ate Too Much Cake

~~~~ Hyper

Have you Ever...?
Played Spin the Bottle?:	oooo, you had to remind me!
Toilet Paper someone's house:	my house has been toilet papered
Played Poker with money:	no
Gone swimming in a white T-shirt:	why would i swim in a shirt?
been tickled so hard you couldn't talk:	yes!
like someone but never told them:	probably
went camping:	yes
had a crush on your broher's friend:	i don't have a brother so that'd be hard
walk in the rain without an umbrella:	yes
told a joke that Nobody thought was funny:	YES
been in a talent show:	i'm not sure actually
started laughing at someone's bedtime:	ummmm?
worn somthing your mom didn't appove of:	all the time
been to a nude beach:	no
drank jack daniels:	yes
cursed in a church:	i haven't been in a church for three years
been called a slut for kissing someone:	probably
burnt yourslef with a curling iron/straightner:	not on purpose
wanted to be a police officer:	no
dumped someone:	yes
been hit on by someone too old:	ewwww es
wanted to be a model:	no
bought lottery tickets:	no
made out in a car:	yes
cried during a movie:	yes... and commericals... and misc. other things
wanted something you couldn't have:	all the time
had sex on the beach:	no
had the drink sex on the beach:	yes
seen someone shoplift:	yes
hung up on someone:	yes
yelled at you pet:	lol yes
bought a thong when the casheir was a guy:	yes
tried to strip when drunk:	no
gotten seasick:	yes... dramamine is my best friend
had a stalker:	sadly
played a prank on somone that had them really scared:	i think so
been embarassed by one of your family:	my freaking cousins hit on chanda during my graduation part *groans*
felt bad about eating meat:	i don't eat meat
protested:	yes
been to an island:	Key Largo bitches!
been in love:	yes
ate jus because you were bored:	my worst vice
looked at something everybody thought was ugly and said "aww":	yes
Screamed in a library:	no
Made out with a stranger:	no
Been Dumped:	yes
Wished a part of you was different:	yes
asked a guy to dance:	yes
been asked out by a really hot guy:	yes
laughe so hard ou cried:	yes
went up to a complete stranger and started talking:	no
been sunburned:	yes
kicked a guy in the nuts for being a pervert:	yes
threw up in school:	yes
recieved an anonymous love letter:	no
had to wear something you hated:	yes
been to a luau:	yes
say your ex and wanted to kick his ass:	no
cursed in front of your parents:	yes
been in a commerical on tv:	local tv
watched a movie that made you miss your ex:	no
been out of the country:	yes
been honked at by some guy when you were walking down the sidewalk:	yes... welcome to miami
won at pool:	online pool? yes
went to a party where you were the ony sober one:	all the time
went on a diet:	yes
been lost out to sea:	no
cheated on your bf:	yes
been cheated on:	i'm not sure
tanned topless:	no
been attacked by seagulls:	yes!
been searched in an airport:	no
been on a plane:	yes
been pants-ed:	no
thown a shoe at someone:	yes
broke someone's heart:	probably
sung in the shower:	all the time
bought something way too expensive:	*groan* yes
done something really stupid that you still laugh about:	yes
been walked in on when you were dressing:	yes
ran out of a movie theatre because you were too scared of the movie:	no
been kicked out of the mall:	no
ben mean to someone then instantly wanted to take it back:	yes!
been given a detention on the worst day that you could get one:	no
done something stupid when you were drunk:	no
fell off your roof:	no
pretended you were scared so you could cuddle up with someone:	yes
had a deer jump in fron of your car:	no
threated someone witha water gun:	no
Can you....
Unwrap a starburst with your tounge:	yes!
sing:	yes
open your eyes underwater:	yes
eat whatever you want and not have to worry:	no
ice skate:	no
sing in front of a crowd:	yes
whistle:	no
be a bitch at times:	yes
do thirty pull ups:	i haven't tried in a while
walkin in really high heals:	yes
eat super spicy foods:	yes
skateboard:	no
sleep with the lights on:	no
mulititask:	yes
touch your nose with your tounge:	no
fall asleep easily in the car:	yes
do the cotton eye joe:	the what?
play ddr and not fall:	never tried
surf:	no
fit in your locker:	i use to... i don't have a locker anymore
do a split:	i haven't tried in a while. i'd need to stretch before i would try again.
taste the difference between pepsi and coke:	hell yes! pepsi all the way!
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I Heart People

~~~~ Frustrated

Oh No...

This could quite possibly be the most frustrating class scheduling I'll ever experience. I just can't seem to win. All the classes I want / need to take have already been filled. I've had some sucess with force-adds but I think I'll need to depend on them a lot more. I don't want to but I'm desperate. Yeah, most people don't care this much but I do and I have problems. And to make the day even worse, the Indians are losing horribly... of course. :(

Brokeback Mountain

~~~~ Groggy


Brokeback Mountain


Brokeback Mountain Wooster High School Style...

Well I think it's funny...

How Ironic...

~~~~ Hopeful



We were just talking about this in English class. Good point...

The parentals come tomorrow. I get to get rid of some of this stuff and the parentals get to drive me around. No English Friday and I'm skipping my History Discussion Group so I only have four classes left this week. Yay! Antonio Banderas movie weekend and possibly a Wally visit but I'm not counting on it. It's Wally, enough said.

am I now allowed to say I'm excited to go to Botany tomorrow because I think Luke is really cute? oh, I hope so because I just did.

How Ironic...

~~~~ Crushed

Bad moments come but they go
Some days are fine, some a little bit harder
But that doesn't mean
We should give up our dream
Have you ever seen
Me defeated?
Don't you forget what I've been through and yet
I'm still standing.

I Met Anthony Rapp

~~~~ Relaxed

Oh it was one of the best experiences of my life! I've been following Rent since I was in the fifth grade and Anthony Rapp has always stood out to me as one of the best actors in the entire production. And he actually came to Miami and I got to hear him speak and read parts of his book. Then he offered a book signing and he signed my book. "hi Megan - Anthony Rapp" And then I stuck my hand out there and said "It was nice to meet you" and he shook it! Seriously my life has been changed forever, is that bad? The experience has been marked forever in history here. Unfortunatley, Steffie couldn't get her camera to work when I approached him so there's no momentous marking of my visit with him but the nice little scribble in my book is all I need.



Seriously? I was that close. Enough said.

Tomorrow...

~~~~ Tired

Tomorrow is a lot of things. Tomorrow in one month I'll be leaving Miami for the summer. May 4th I go home. Gosh, that's so soon. Tomorrow I have some important things to decide. But tomorrow Brokeback Mountain also come out on dvd... *cheers* :D

Today was too much. I woke up at 8:15 and went to Western Civ. We talked about the Russian Revolution... oh can my professor get excited when we talk about anything having to do with Russia! Then I did my history homework in the library until Italian. Sante happily announced that sooner than later the entire world would be speaking English and we are infact learning Italian for nothing and he has wasted his entire life teaching a language that will be gone someday. :confused: He was kidding... I think. Then it was cold and rainy and overall quite yucky so I got a grilled cheese sandwhich and tomato soup from Bell Tower... yay for comfort food! :laugh: After lunch was English where we talked about illegal immigration... that's one issue I don't have a deifinite stance on. Those people need help and I want them to come here and find opportunities. But they are illegal maybe it's just the bad connotation of the word. Or maybe I just think the government should make the U.S. Citizens test easier because I took a practice version of it (it was online, I wondered if I could pass it since I was born here and will never know) and I've lived here all my life and I still failed. :( Now, how are people who are just coming here to find better opportunities suppose to invest the time, effort, and money to take the test and become a U.S. Citizen? I feel bad for them and I think they should be allowed to stay. That's my story.
Anywhoo, then I went to the library to get homework done and start studying for my Botany Exam that's tomorrow. Three hours and one Bell Tower smoothie later I had all my homework done plus a pretty extensive study guide for my exam. Then I went to the review session for Botany and after that got a sanwhich from the market for dinner. I'm feeling pretty good about this exam. Most of this stuff is still review from A.P. Biology so I just need to keep it fresh in my mind and I'll be good to go. Probably gonna go take a shower soon. I guess I'll be going to bed early tonight because I've run out of things to do. The Story of the Stone is just as good a book as Bridge of Birds and I may finish it tonight. But then Eight Skilled Gentlemen isn't in yet so I might not have a book to read! :p That's a travesty for me!

I Can't Believe Actually Bought a Fish

~~~~ Happy

Well I did it. I gave in and bought myself a pet fish. Not sure why. I've never wanted to own a fish before. But I do. My first fish, a beta. Ooooooh goodness.



His name is Walt and I am strangely fond of him.

Going to see You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown tonight. Yay!