Boredom... But I Can't Put Down my New Computer!

~~~~ Bored


2008 IS ALMOST OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?

Stayed single the whole year?
Pretty much

Kissed someone new?
Three someones

Done something you've regretted?
yessss

Lost someone?
metaphorically or physically?

Cut class?
More than I should have

Were involved in something you'll never forget?
hmmm.... oh probably... ask me in 50 years if I forget them.

Visited a different country?
Not this year :(

Cooked a gross meal?
all of my cooking is tasty!

Lost something important to you?
yes

Got a gift you adore?
Barney... the pretty new macbook I'm playing with at the moment!

Tripped over a coffee table?
hahah. i'm sure i tripped over our coffee table at some point.

Dyed your hair?
yessum. Red and then back to brown.

Came close to losing your life?
Not to my knowledge but I'm sure.

Went to a party?
yessum

Read a great book?
more then one!

Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live?
No... :(

Did you meet any new friends this year?
oh yes yes.... the lovely Michele! and Sue :)

Did you dislike anyone?
I grew to dislike a few people...

Did you grow apart from anyone?
I'm beginning to think so.

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
I don't think so.


2008: Your BIRTHDAY!

Did you have a cake?
A surprise coldstone cake :)

Did you have a party?
just a general celebration

Did you get any presents?
a couple

Name some and who'd you get them from?
handcuffs from Lindsay :)
gas card from aunt
and Barney for my birthday / christmas / graduation present from the parentals.

2008: All about YOU

Did you change at all this year?
I believe so

Did you change your style?
I got bangs? Does that count?

Were you in school?
the vast majority of 2008

Did you get good grades?
grades are relative anyways... but yeah. they weren't baaad.

Did you drive?
a lot

Did you own a car?
Tre!

Did anyone close to you give birth?
ummm no?

Did you move at all?
moved from home to college to home. then to Cincinnati. then home. then back to college. then back home. phew!

Did you go on any vacations?
NYC!

Would you change anything about yourself now?
there are certain goals i'm trying to set...

2008 WRAP UP:

Was 2008 a good year?
can't complain thaaat much.

Do you think 2009 will be better then 2008?
considering i have no idea what to expect from 2009 i haven't a clue.

I confess that in 2008 I...

() kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
(x) had your heart broken
(x) went over the minutes on your cell phone
() someone questioned your sexual orientation
() came out of the closet
() gotten pregnant
() had an abortion
(x) done something you've regretted

OTHER
(x) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
() ran a mile
() shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
() posted a blog on MySpace
() visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
() cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lied about how old you were
(x) prank called someone

In 2008 I...
[x] broke a promise
[] fell out of love
[x] told a little white lie
[x] lied
[x] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[] slept under the stars
[] kept your new years resolution
[] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[] met one of your idols
[] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[] left the country
[] almost died
[x] given up on something/someone important to you
[] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[x] had a high cell phone bill
[x] spent most of your money on food
[] had a fist fight
[] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
[x] gotten sick
[x] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[x] became closer with a lot of people

Currently Listening to: Homecoming / The Death of St. Jimmy / East 12th St. / Nobody Likes You / Rock and Roll Girlfriend / We're Coming Home Again - Green Day

I'm Developing a Quoting Problem

~~~~ Anxious

"Never say goodbye. Because goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting." - Peter Pan

"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same." - The Fray

"I think I'm afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens." - Charlie Brown

Currently Listening to: All the Stars and Boulevards - Augustana

Quotastic

~~~~ Discontent

"You ever think that the world is a giant game of musical chairs, and the music's stopped and we're the only ones who don't have a chair?"
- Xander. Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

"Imperfection is beauty; madness is genious; and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."
- Marilyn Monroe

PC Woes

~~~~ Bored

So as a little Merry Christmas to me I bought the Sims2 Double Deluxe edition. Hey it was $20 and I love the original Sims so I thought "what the heck." Well the first two seconds I got into the game were pretty fun... Then I kept getting a blue screen of death with an ati2davg infinite loop problem. I went ahead and googled it and I think I got a fix... a lot of pages told me to update my drives... or something. I dunno, there were step by step directions and I followed the steps. Now I should be good to go but needless to say I'm nervous to start over so I'm taking a little break. If worst comes to worst I'll just sell the game on ebay! It's not like I was planning to play it for very long either... if my parentals agree to fork over half the cost like they said they would for my birthday / christmas / graduation present, I should be getting a pretty new macbook this break. There's a part of me that's actually kinda nervous... I've never owned a mac before and what if something goes wrong? But pretty much I'm just looking forward to owning a computer with minimum problems. And since my computer knowledge starts with iTunes and ends with an extrememly limited knowledge of html, I have a feeling that the fool-proofness of a mac is just what I need. The problems I've been experienced with my beloved IBM over the past year have made choose to go over to the dark-side of the PC world. So good-bye Sims (if I can get it to work on good-ol Clark hopefully I'll be spending my break playing however) and hello Barney (because the MacBook's so pretty it's suited up... How I Met Your Mother, anyone?).

Love at First Bite?

~~~~ Relieved

While I will be the first to admit I hold special place in my heart for the Twilight series, there are certain aspects of the saga that disturb me to my core. This article by a student at Bryn Mawr University highlights some of the finer points. While it neglects to mention the clear anti-feminist tones in the book, it certainly points out the extrememly unhealthy relationship the main characters have. Don't get me wrong, I love me some Jasper, Alice, Emmet, and Jacob, but I'm old enough to realize the stories Stephanie Meyer produce are just that, stories. The age genre that Twilight is written for, is not. So here you go, all the things that disturb me most about Twilight:

Love at First Bite?
Posted December 15th, 2008 by alexandra.stratyner
By Hannah Slavitt

I recently read the Twilight series because I wanted to see what all
the buzz was about. Many of my friends had read it, and my younger sister
couldn’t put it down.
Stephanie Meyer has done an admirable job riding the wave of success that the Harry Potter books have enjoyed. She followed the trend of midnight book release parties and big-budget blockbuster movies featuring dreamy British lead actors. She stands to make a fortune. And, despite the fact the she is a bad writer with stunted style who is in desperate need of a thesaurus, the plot is somewhat engaging and it doesn’t take huge commitment or any brain power to breeze through the books.
Many have said that Stephanie Meyer’s series advocates, at times subtly and others explicitly, abstinence. While this may be true, the series still manages to present the most over-sexualized, unhealthy teenage relationship imaginable. The central
relationship between Bella, a mere mortal, and Edward, a vampire, is presented
as a tragic romance akin to that of Romeo and Juliet. Their relationship, however, is no model for a healthy high school courtship

— and neither is Romeo and Juliet’s, for that matter.

Before Bella and Edward even start a relationship, Edward uses his vampire super powers to sneak into Bella’s room and watch her sleep. That is creepy stalker behavior, more sinister than romantic. When they do start a relationship, it displays classic signs of an abusive relationship. Edward is controlling, needing to know where Bella is at every moment. Bella has no normal friends or social life for most of the series, and spends all of her time with Edward. When Bella makes one friend outside of her relationship, Edward doesn’t approve; he forcefully demands she end that
friendship, once again using his vampire powers to thwart any attempt she might dare make to see her friend. Any sensible person would be alarmed of this sort of behavior took place outside of the pages of a fictional book. Another disturbing element of their relationship is the constant undercurrent of references to suicide. Bella and Edward both declare in every book that they refuse to live without the other. Is it really healthy to present some twisted, overwrought suicide pact a la Romeo and Juliet as the romantic ideal? Finally, Bella and Edward act like that annoying high school couple who are convinced they are going to get married; but usually, in the real world at least, that couple breaks up and they date other people. And yes, I think dating more than one person is an important part of growing up and
getting to know yourself. But no, Bella gets married and pregnant–with a vampire
child, of course–at the ripe old age of eighteen.
I think that it is really problematic and irresponsible to present a relationship like Bella and Edward’s in an extremely romanticized way, especially considering the audience to which these books and movies are being marketed. It’s hard enough for young people to form healthy relationships, without them being presented with unrealistic, unhealthy models of love and sex.
If my little sister brought home Edward, there would be drama.

Slavitt, a sophomore English major, can be reached at hslavitt@brynmawr.edu.

Numb

~~~~ Groggy

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

It's True

~~~~ Happy

I have the craziest roommates ever...

I wouldn't change them for the world.

Currently Listening To: Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Ick

~~~~ Sick

I tried so hard to keep from getting sick. Okay, maybe not as hard as I originally intended but I seriously didn't want to get sick this year. Major suck.

There are potentially four reasons that I got sick. #1. Friday night for my birthday we went out to Balcony for the drag show. During the night I used the restroom. #2. That same night we went to Alexander House for dinner and Laura came with. Laura was sick. #3 Last night Austin and I went out to play in the snow. #4 I spent the night with someone who was sick. Combination of the four? All-in-all poor life decisions? You be the judge. And yes. I would define most of the choices as poor life decisions.

On the bright side being sick means sitting around all day watching movies with Austin. Did you know? Obama will be a good president because he won't go after the mutants? Yeah... we're watching X-Men 3. Despite my throat hurting it's days like this that I truly enjoy.

Yeah...

~~~~ Pessimistic

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Bruised

~~~~ Confused



Currently Listening To: Dark Blue - Jack's Mannequin