I Know These Hands Could Write a Page

~~~~ Worried

Yuck. Transitions suck sooo much. I think I say that every single time I have to come home / go back to school. I just hate it. I love it here. I love it at school. I call both of them home and I feel that way too. Sometimes I feel like the only one who feels that way. Other people either love school and hate home or love home and hate school. Can't we love both? Oh well... Once more, it'll be better once I get back. I'm taking Brian home and Daddy gave us directions to drive past Touchdown Jesus. Yes! Roadtrip!!! I really need to start spending more time with Brian. I always have so much fun with him. It's weird that sometimes I just feel like being by myself. hmmmmm....

This break was great. Tuesday I got home and started out the break by arguing with my parents, particularly my mom. Well, okay, that part wasn't great, but it got better. We sat down Tuesday night and got all my AUC paperwork taken care of. Most of the papers are sitting in the New York offices as I type. It's official. The papers are in. The checks have been signed. I'm going to Cairo. I think that's why I'm nervous. It's real. After all these years of dreaming and wishing it's really coming true. Crazy!!! So after that I went out with some high school friends. Yay random times in the country. It's really easy to forget the adrenaline rush that comes from driving as fast as you can on back country roads at 2 in the morning... hahaha.

Wednesday was pretty low-key. Mom and I went to AAA and got passport pictures. Apparently my mom and dad are finally getting around to getting passports. "You know, just to have." hmmmm, now, whatever could that mean! After that I just kinda relaxed. Saw some more people, and helped Mom get Thanksgiving ready. I like Thanksgiving at my house because I don't have to go anywhere but it also means a lot of extra work. You can never win.

Thanksgiving was kinda disappointing this year. Not as many people showed up this year as normal. Which also meant there weren't as many people to occupy uncle Jack's attention. Which, of course, meant I was cornered and asked tons of questions. This year though I was a little more willing to talk to uncle Jack. I dunno, just the way he asked his questions it made me feel kinda bad. He has had absolutley no experience with college. He didn't go. His parenst didn't go. Neither did his wife or even his two children. Apparently he pictured college as an extreme version of Animal House, which may be the case for some, but I really had to explain to him that I'm not like that. And he still doesn't understand why I'd want to go to Cairo, or "Kay-row" as his son calls it. Grrrrr.

But I survived, as I always do. Friday was another day for friends. Lori and I went to lunch. It was nice to see her again. I'm kinda afraid my Starbucks connection will fall through. But at least the manager at the 'weed has been fired. Maybe I could still work there without it being too awkward with that stalker of mine. After that I did a Wal-Mart run for some necessities. Wal-Mart isn't too bad at 3 pm on Black Friday. More hanging out after that.

Today was all about family. Daddy and I went to the AAA (I sure have seen a lot of that place this break) and got me my plane ticket *eeep* No stop in Europe for me :( Oh well. For some reason, I do believe I will survive. Then Mom and I went shopping. It was for my birthday since it's in 4 days (ahhhh 4 days and I'm not a teenager anymore!!!!!!). I got a cute pair of ballet flats, a new pair of chucks (white and pink), two pairs of sunglasses for Cairo, and hardcover copies of The Fellowship of the Ring, The Two Towers, The Return of the King, and The Hobbit. Complete with illustrations by Alan Lee. Oh yeah. I've been wanted those for a while. I've literally read my paperback copies to shreads so this is great. After shopping we had pizza at Grandma's. I love family time with the Daddy's side of the family. More presents. I got a gift card for Staples from the Beckers. Yaaay shopping! But by bestest present came from my Grandma. She got me about 100 Egyptian Pounds and a little pocket English-Arabic dictionary. She keeps calling my trip to Egypt "my adventure". She's seriously the cutest thing ever!

So tomorrow it's time to go back to school and "put my nose to the grindstone" or whatever for two more weeks + finals then I have well over a month to just relax and gather myself for my trip... oh, and make some money!!!

P.S. The book Eragon? Not too shabby. I'm kinda excited for the movie now.e

Home for Thanksgiving. So some food for thought.

~~~~ Content

"The gift of spreading discord and enmity is very great. We can fight it only by showing an equally strong bond of friendship and trust. Differences of habit and language are nothing at all if our aims are identical and our hearts are open."

As Time Goes By

~~~~ Lethargic

In less then three days I'll be home for Thanksgiving. I can't believe that. That means that in less then a month this room will be packed up and everything will be moved back to my house. Then in a little over two months I'll be on my way to Cairo. Oh my gosh. That's simply crazy. I'm honestly ready for Thanksgiving. I want to go home and relax and I need Need NEED to look at the papers they sent. I guess I just need to take everything else in stride. I'm looking beyond the rest of the year with my friends, the end of classes, finals, and the holidays and looking straight to shipping my behind across the Atlantic for four months. I have so much before me and it doesn't all involve Arabic and Pyramids. oooh well. I need a change. There are people who I thought I was pretty close to but it turns out I'm not. There are other people who I need to start taking a little more seriously and possibly start taking their phone calls again. I don't know. Maybe I should just give up on this life and concentrate on getting over to Egypt and starting over. It seems like the older I get the more restless I become. By my junior year of high school I was bored and ready for a change. College it only took me a three semesters to get ready to get out. That's not good though because the older I get the more I should be preparing myself to settle down and commit to a full-time life. At this rate I'll never be able to have a family.

I'M GOING TO CAIRO!!!

~~~~ Flying High

I did it! I made got into AUC. In 71 days I'll be in Cairo!!! I don't even know what to do with myself. I've gone from laughing hysterically, crying hysterically, calling everyone I know, jumping up and down, invisible hugging, to repeating "I'm going to Cairo" over and over and over again. I do believe I've written it a good 5 times in various places. I wanted to go to Bannerweb to drop my classes for next semester to make it a little realer but I can't :( stupid online holds. Seriously? I'm going to fucking Cairo!

I'M GOING TO CAIRO!!!

The One You Have With Yourself

~~~~ Pretty Darn Good

Only two more classes until the weekend! That's amazing. I'm so ready for a break from everything. I want all my homework done today so I don't have to worry about anything. That sounds too good to me. Lindsay's working a lot this weekend and that kinda sucks because we won't have any random adventures but I'll survive. Wally called last night but I didn't answer. I think I'll call him this weekend. I think he and his girlfriend broke up so I'd assum he'd want to talk about it. I miss him. Seeing those rotc guys in my Arabic class four times a week makes me really miss him. I hope he'll always be okay.

Lindsay registered for my classes next semester since I was in the cemetary for Geology. I have four classes... yeah, that's only 12 credit hours. AND all four of those classes are Tuesday / Thursday. That means I have NO classes MWF. Now I almost want this schedule! But if I did stay here next semester I'd more then likely add a few more classes and they'd more than likely be MWF but still! I kinda like to look at my schedule just because I think it's too funny! Oh well, I still want to go to Cairo more!!!

It's been a month. Any time now, right?

I Need Help Believing

~~~~ Stressed

So much taking on Wednesday. Just one more class and an Italian group and I should be done. But it still felt like an awful lot. I have to deal with the stress of scheduling but I'll probably not even use the schedule. Grrrr.... I mean if I don't get into AUC I'll need classes for next semester. However, I have every intention of signing up for the bare minimum of credits! I'm gonna be extremely emo if I'm not in Cairo next semester.

Other then that I guess it was a same old same old Wednesday. Went to classes, had lunch at Bell Tower, took a Geology Exam. Kinda want it to be the weekend so I don't have to do anything. Yup, for the first time in like a month I have no plans! Woooo! I kinda want to spend Saturday and Sunday in bed but I'm sure that'd get old after like 5 minutes. The weather's getting icky and it's getting dark early. I feel winter coming on but I kinda want it to just be December. Getting ready for the holidays. Spending half the month here with my friends, the other hald at home with my other friends and family. Now that Samhain's over the next thing I have to look forward to is Yule. And that could come fast enough!