Disease in my Head

~~~~ Frustrated

I know that my ex tried to get a hold of me quite a bit this summer but I never felt the need to talk to him. Every once in a while I feel kinda bad about it. I even tried to email him once but I couldn't actually get myself to send it. I decided to put it all down and maybe he'll read it here. Maybe he won't. But I will get it all off my chest and that'll make me feel better.

I am sorry I haven't gotten back to you. I really appreciate you being the bigger person and taking some initiative. However, I have had a very busy summer. What with a car accident which totaled my car, getting my new car, applying to the American University at Cairo, seeing old friends, travelling, and working long hours at a new job, I honestly have had more on my mind and totally forgot about calling you back. And to be perfectly honest with you, I'm completely over you. I haven't spent much of the summer thinking of you. I'm not saying that to offend you, I'm just being frank. And therefore, since I don't feel the need to seek any closure with you, the only thing I feel like I would say to you is "I was right!" You see, even though I'm over you I can't get over the fact that you told me all your friends at school were strictly platonic and now you're dating Fiona. So I appreciate you trying to stay in touch, but honestly, I have too much on my mind to attempt the very awkward conversation we would have. I hope you have had a good summer and have an even better school year. I wish you the best.

So anways... now I feel better. Got asked out again today. Eeeep! How weird is it that I want to get back to Miami where people find me unattractive and don't ask me out? Anways, his name is Josh and he's really nice and sweet but he really isn't my time. He works at Tumbleweed and I don't even know how old he is. I'm really nervous about this... so we'll see if I have time before I go about to school. Once more, eeeeeeep!