Of Course

~~~~ Upset

I keep getting my hopes up... things aren't going my way. Even the little things. I just wanted to see him. Just one night. Now it's been reduced to one meal and even now I'm not really keeping my fingers crossed. He'll have to cancel. It'll never work out. Even if he does come Friday I'll be working and won't be able to see much of him then. He probably won't even be able to come anyways. Things go right just in time to go crashing down down down. I don't have a future. I don't have a present. This is just the icing on the last few weeks of terrible. Nothing seems to be going right lately. I'm tired and upset and just want to cry. I can't catch a break. If karma's a bitch what the hell did I do? I know he doesn't care like I do. I should be caring the way he does. He just seems to be the only one who understands at the moment. And I keep losing it. Wonder what's wrong with me...