I Quit

~~~~ Restless

On boys, school, and life in general. I've been disappointed by three seperate boys this week. At first I was crushed, especially by the first boy, but now I'm so over it. Three days left until the semester is over. Only two classes left. Tomorrow I need to study for Anthropological Theory and probably I should fix my Myth paper. Thursday's the Anthro Final and Friday's the Myth Final. Then I'm going home for two days and then it's back to Cincinnati for my internship. That's life. I'm so over that too. Life. I should be excited because I'm doing something I love for the summer and then senior year I have a great schedule. But there's still a part of me that feels like it's not worth it because no one else cares. I was so close to at least a little happiness that now that it's gone I kinda don't care anymore. That's a lie. I do care a lot but it's more of an I'll care once I'm out of this place and down in Cincy. I've become a recluse to my books. I've decided for the next year I'm gonna keep track of how many pages I read in pleasure books. I dunno why. I've always wanted to do it... There's something wrong with me. I feel restless.

Currently Watching: Family Guy

~~~~ Hopeful

"An artist is always alone - if he is an artist. No, what the artist needs is loneliness." - Henry Miller

Currently Watching: Matilda

~~~~ Crushed

Who knew you could heal my heart and then break it so quickly. I was just accepting the commitment thing I'm so afraid of. Even if I can't keep you anymore can you still keep me?

April 26 2008

~~~~ Anxious

Holy shit...

I've started this again. And I don't want to stop. Never thought I'd feel this way again.

It's True

~~~~ Frustrated

Boys in books are just better.


There's a part of me that thinks god should have just kept them that way.

~~~~ Sick

I have direction in my life. And if I find someone who's staying at Miami over the summer I have direction and I plan to kill myself. At least I'll make money...

I've also learned that I have a fear of commitment. I just need to get through the initial stage and then I'll be okay. I feel like I have hope.

And I'm addicted to the Twilight Series. Except sometimes I want to shoot Bella. ONE PERSON (other then yourself) SHOULD NEVER BE CAPABLE OF ALTERING YOUR ENTIRE EXISTENCE. And I'm currently reading New Moon and that's exactly what's going on. *Sigh* I think that's why I'm convinced I'm better off alone...

Currently Watching: Pretty Woman

It Had to Be This

~~~~ Stressed

"I believe in pink, I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles." - Audrey Hepburn

Currently Listening to: Absolutley Nothing